Summer’s halfway over!

Today’s July 6th, meaning…summer is already halfway over. WHERE HAVE ALL THE DAYS GONE BY?! It seems just yesterday that school ended, and everyone was all “omg summer summer summer beach blahblahblah.” I think the main reason why I’m so disappointed that summer is already halfway over is cause I haven’t accomplished anything that I was supposed to. Among those…

• get a job (nope.)
• at least halfway done with Bright Futures hours (not even close).
• discover something time-worthy (obviously not).
• figure out how to make Keylogger computer cookies (nope, and don’t ask xD)

Everyday I’ve been getting up at around 11, and doing nothing but eat, sleep, hang out with friends, watch stupid movies…every single day. I think if my summer continues like that anymore I’m gonna have to kill myself Haha not really, but seriously, I need a change. I want to make this summer the best yet, and the way it’s going so far, that’s not gonna happen xD

Any ideas? Leave me a comment, bitches.

I like writing sappy love poems.

A hundred words, a thousand promises,

countless times heartbroken, billions of feelings betrayed.

Forbidden thoughts are running through my head as we speak.

Lies, games, and healing hearts.

The tremble of your lips as you said “i love you” one last time.

Did you know that the end was near?

Tears, phone calls, the last hope. I’ve been through it all, all for you.

Sometimes I wonder, sometimes I hope, do you still sometimes think about that day?

The day that you ended it all.

The day that my heart stopped for a split second, when I thought I couldn’t go on.

The beginning had been amazing, I had your trust and you had mine.

You took everything from me, nothing was left.

Within months you were everything in my life, how stupid was I?

I was naive and foolish, believing everything I heard.

Someday I will be happy, I will be able to laugh at the silly mistakes that I have commited a long time ago.

Though that moment isn’t today, I hope you are happy.

With you, I lost everything. In the end, I lost you too.

Each day is harder than the one before, being away from you.

Sometimes I doubt myself, doubt that I will be able to move on.

I have to keep on telling myself to “be strong” and have faith in me.

Thank you for making me struggle, thank you for making me cry.

With each stab in my heart is a new lesson learned.

The next time you see me? I will be a different  person.

Next time, I won’t be the silly innocent girl who gives in to teenage puppy love.

Next time, I won’t be the one crying and calling after you.

Each day is like a obstacle that makes me stronger,

with each day, I walk further away from where I used to be.

Hello from New York!

Hey guys So I’m finally here. New York. Summer has started, and here I am on my first vacation of summer ’09. My family and I are staying with relatives here, about 20 minutes of a car/train ride from NYC. I just got here 2 hours ago, and so far, has been….well to be honest, super tiring. Getting up at 7 in the morning for the first time after getting up no later than noon for the past week is total hell. Afterwards, it was saving through 2 hours of boring plane ride with nothing to do but attempt to read. When I got here, I realized that this is what New York looks like for the most part, no joke:

There’s New York for ya.

For the first day, I think I’m just going to relax: sleep, stuff my face, and…yeah that’s about it. What I do best.  I’m just starting to get a hang of this whole blogging thing, so I’m trying new things pointlessly haha. Bare with me.

Hello world!

Hey everyone! My name is Michelle. I got the idea of starting a blog from my friend Saraaa and since summer’s coming up I thought, why not start a blog? So here I am. To start off, I’m Asian. That was totally not to be random, but just the first thing that generally pops into someone’s head as their first impression of me. “Asian”. Moving on, I love to sing, play the piano, and act. I was in our school’s production of “Bye Bye Birdie” this year, though as a freshman I was not one of the lead parts. My favorite color is red, haha just being random.

For the most part, my life is going pretty well. School is about to end and summer is only 3 days away! Of course, being in IB, that means I still have to write an MLA formatted 2,000 word essay with 20 sources, and take two of the hardest exams there are that I exempted last semester (Math and Bio), but overall, I am so happy for summer to be almost here. No more cramming for tests, and staying up late the night before a huge project is due because I procrastinated too much. No more turning down a night out with friends because I have to write a stupid essay, NO MORE SCHOOL FOR 2 AND A HALF MONTHS! After a long and pressuring first year in the IB program, I can’t wait to finally have a time to relax. For the first time in my life, I just might be happy to have nothing to do.

There’s so much more to talk about, but I’ll leave that to later posts. Leave me a comment sometime